Thursday, November 18, 2010

Yes, It's True


I'm sure you've been hearing rumors! It's true. I am pregnant. I'm due July 1.
"But you said you were done," you must be thinking. I was. Someone with higher powers had something else in mind for me. I hate being pregnant and wish away these 9 months and I did not want to go through this misery again. I'm a mean, selfish person when I'm pregnant and I hate it. After I swore off being pregnant again, I started having these 'feelings'. I wasn't done and I knew it. I tried to talk myself out of it. I tried to ignore those promptings, but they didn't go away. I decided that I was going to give it 3 months-no more- and if it was supposed to happen, then it would. It happened. It's like having something to do and you really don't want to do it, but you know you have to do it anyway. Yeah, that's my life. Don't get me wrong. I want more kids, but getting them here is sooooo hard.
We really wanted to wait to tell people. After I had my miscarriage, I found it was hard spreading the word and then being really disappointed. I have been really sick lately, which I know is a good sign. I'm sorry if I have been mean lately. I'm sorry that my house isn't the best right now. And, I'm sorry that my kids are spending WAY too much time in front of the TV, but I am in survival mode right now. I promise I will get better in about 7 months!! Until then, don't expect much!!! I'm just sayin'.....

3 comments:

Goodwin Family said...

Congrats Melanie!! hope the next 7 months are easy as pie! :)

maryellen Ward/Birch said...

congratulations and i know as hard as it may be it will deffinatly be worth it in the end. I promise

Becky said...

Oh Congratulations! I'm sorry that pregnancy is so bad for you. I actually love being pregnant. I'm one of those people that should have like 12 kids because it is so good to me. When I told my Grandma that she said, "why would you ever want 12 kids". Hope that this pregnancy is different for you and that you are feeling super. (I'm just thinking positive for you.)